June 9, 2008

A date that I will forever despise.

A date that left my heart so broken it might take me a lifetime to patch together. That is, if it can still be fixed.

Time heals all wounds, right? It’s been nine months but mine is still so raw it’s still bleeding. So, I’m wondering who the heck came up with that saying? It has absolutely no basis, at all.

Then, I had an epiphany, if it can be called that. I have recently been fascinated by Criminal Minds, a series about a team of FBI profilers and the really twisted minds of “unsubs”, and each episode is ended by one of the profilers quoting a famous somebody in relevance to what the episode was all about. Season 2’s first episode ended with this saying: “It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens, but it is never gone. – Rose Kennedy”.

Now, that is a lady who knows her sh*t. It makes so much more sense than “Time heals all wounds.” I mean, how can you expect time to heal a wound so deep you find yourself waking up crying? How can you expect time to heal a wound so big that there’s basically nothing left of your heart?

So, thanks for that Ms. Rose Kennedy. I just hope that my mind can protect itself fast enough and cover my wounds with scar tissue as soon as possible, before my very flimsy hold on my sanity is broken.